There comes a point in your life when you ask yourself what, why, how I got here. It starts usually after a certain age. What am I doing with my life? What am I here for? Why did I do that? Why am I here at this juncture in my life? How did this happen? How did I let it get this far? It is a slippery slope to dwell on but sometimes necessary to get some perspective on your present situation. It can also be therapeutic. Why pay a shrink to tell you what you could have figured out on your own? Accept certain truths about yourself and deal with them. Know it can always be better. But we sometimes make decisions that have life altering affects. How much thought did I give that one or did I have all the facts? Well, any way that happened, so you have to birth something new. It may hurt but pain is necessary for the process of bringing forward new life. Like a child asking a million question a day. Sometimes that is what you have to do to get the answers.
What is your motivation? Is it self serving? Is it positive? Will it improve your present circumstances? I myself am considered a “Jack.” A sampler of all trades and master of none. People say it as a slight at us, but honestly I enjoy it. I consider myself a walking “Swiss Army knife”. I can do a little of everything. If we were on survivor I would be more valuable than someone that has one use and no flexibility. When life situations change so can I. Knowing a little of this and doing a little of that is my spice of life. Self exploration motivates me. Can I do that if I had to? What is that like? What makes that so special? I never seen my self as a person to stay any one place and retire there. I must say through all of that I consistently like being the comedian. Not the smart ass, not the loud mouth, nor the rude one. “Johnny on the spot”. If my people was on the slave ship, we were the ones in the back making people laugh through their pain. I’m positive there was nothing to laugh at. However, that’s what I am made of. It took a long time to realize that about myself because it was so natural for me. I never gave it another thought. to make it a profession. It still requires honing but it is what I do. What is it that you just naturally do? What is it that you would do even if no one paid you to do it? Not to seek financial gain but inner joy. Like kids who wake up ready to play before they even get out of bed. That joy that wakes you up before the alarm clock goes off. What is it that motivates you want to live your best life?……….
To Be Continued